Easter. It was a big diving board for me.
I don't want to live a life of living in the shadows of what I want to do if I were more popular/confident/pretty/etc,etc.
Rather I would like to live in the now. For me. To do what I find joy in. Not for what I think others would like. After all, a life chasing after someone else's dreams is so exhausting.
And so I have thrown off the shackles of self-doubt and am seeking out what truly makes me happy. I'm not shopping the Matilda Jane collections thinking "oh, so and so has this dress," with a tinge of competitiveness that I should get it too. Nope, I'm looking at what I like. What I want. What makes me feel happy!
And so it is with those eyes that I look at the world and see what I like around me. Here is what is on my list:
I saw them at Joann Fabrics last night and I iust love them. Trying to figure out where I would put one. I think there is one in every house on Fixer Upper. Clearly I am cool because I like them too ;)
Holy wow, he's incredible. I've gotta tell ya, I am one hot mess. I go through these times where I sit and wallow that he's not romantic enough, or we don't spend time alone like we used to, or whatever crap I can come up with and he just walks with me through it. And then eventually our love brings me out of it and he helps me see that he may not be tv romantic but he helps with the kids baths and the laundry and the dishes and that's pretty darn romantic in its own right. And we may not spend as much time alone as we used to but it's because we have two growing, silly, awesome kids and that seems like a pretty good reason to not have as much time alone. Besides we do spend all of our free time together because we like each other.
And just like that I swoon over him and am head over heels for him. I can't believe he chose me and seriously folks, the dude chose me 15 years ago! I'm thinking that me still being in awe of that means we really are in love or I'm just completely stupid. Either way, I think we've got a pretty good thing going here :)
Or any bed for that matter. Last weekend we had a Mother/Daughter sleepover with Emma's American Heritage Girls troop. We had a blast. I didn't have a blast sleeping on the floor of the church basement. I think I was the only mom who didn't have the foresight to bring an air mattress. And oh what a silly mistake that was!
So after that night I have been coming to my bed almost with an unrequited love. Ah bed, you just love me so much and take such good care of me!
Who knew I could use them for so many "crafty" things? Hahaha. That's a teaser folks for my next blog to come ;) But they are definitely making me one happy Momma!
What things are making you happy today? Count your blessings and comment what is bringing you joy!
Have a great day, sweet friends!