I have sat down to write several times, only to discover the feeling has crept in that I have nothing to say.
No original thought. Nothing that could be used to help anyone else feel better or encouraged or, well, much of anything.
And so I've hidden in the shadows. This always seems to happen around this time of the year.
The time of year when the lack of sun during the winter has kept me indoors enough to feel not wanted.
And then things happen, small things, and small droplets of discouragement seem to pol to make me feel unwanted and unneeded...stupid things, dumb things, like unanswered emails, being taken off a website as admin that I am no longer a part of, on and on, things seem to pile up.
In reality, in my mind I know these are silly and foolish things to allow to frustrate me, but they still do manage to make me feel inconsequential.
And so I remain quiet. I try to find my purpose, my mission, the plan God has for me.
Sometimes God seems quiet.
But then I remember 2 Corinthians 10:5:
That reminds me that I need to get these thoughts and feelings under control. I need to make them obedient to Christ who tells me that I am valued and loved and cherished.
And I need to look at my life as something to be shared to bless others.
That being said I am now taking my thoughts back from devil and taking them captive. I will hold them accountable and make them align with what God thinks of me. I will ponder what God says about me until I believe it. No more will I play victim to the enemies attacks on my mind and feelings.
And so I hope you all are having a wonderful day! It is sunshiney and wonderful here. We went sledding earlier today in addition to school. I hope you all are glad to have my back because I am glad to be back! I love you all and I am sorry for the times that Satan gets me down.
But no more!
Have a blessed day, y'all!